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	<title>ABSOLUT JAY &#187; Life</title>
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		<title>★ Side Hustle Series</title>
		<link>http://www.absolutjay.com/2012/04/side-hustle-series/</link>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 26 Apr 2012 15:37:21 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jay</dc:creator>
				<category><![CDATA[Food]]></category>
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		<description><![CDATA[As many of you know, for over a year, I worked on a food truck. I was invited to guest author a post to talk about my experience and the financial advantages of working a part time job on a &#8230; <a href="http://www.absolutjay.com/2012/04/side-hustle-series/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>As many of you know, for over a year, I worked on a food truck. I was invited to guest author a <a href="http://www.budgetsaresexy.com/2012/04/food-truck-worker/">post </a>to talk about my experience and the financial advantages of working a part time job on a food truck. I talk about how I got started, the type of work I did and how it helped me out financially.</p>
<p>Check it out <a href="http://www.budgetsaresexy.com/2012/04/food-truck-worker/">here</a>.</p>
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		<title>★ Closing Time</title>
		<link>http://www.absolutjay.com/2012/03/closing-time/</link>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 30 Mar 2012 21:01:44 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jay</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Looking back, I can roughly group the phases of my life based on the places I&#8217;ve lived. I left my hometown of San Diego when I was 18 to go to college. Throughout college, I lived in various places in &#8230; <a href="http://www.absolutjay.com/2012/03/closing-time/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Looking back, I can roughly group the phases of my life based on the places I&#8217;ve lived. I left my hometown of San Diego when I was 18 to go to college. Throughout college, I lived in various places in Irvine and the surrounding cities in Orange County. After I graduated in 2004 and got my first full time job, I moved into a house in Irvine. I didn&#8217;t know the landlord at the time, but through him and his social group, I ended up meeting some life long friends. In 2006, we moved into a larger house in Irvine and affectionately called it Mango, after our street name. The next 3 years were some of the most memorable years of my twenties. For a short while, we were going out close to 6 days a week. Living with 5 other people in a house is fun but after awhile, I wanted to live in a smaller space, possibly on my own.</p>
<p>I discovered Downtown Santa Ana and its Artist&#8217;s Village neighborhood after going to The Crosby one night to have a drink. I was amazed that such an area existed in Orange County which is mostly known for its conservative residents, suburban sprawl and Disneyland. I&#8217;d heard that one of the apartment complexes was having a move in special for new residents. So in 2009, I took advantage and moved into my first apartment I could call my own. I loved it. I loved having bars and restaurants walking distance from my place. I loved living in one of Orange County&#8217;s oldest and most historic cities. I loved having living in a place I could call my own, decorating how I wanted and knowing that the only mess I was cleaning up was my own. Living on your own can be difficult financially so in 2010, I moved in with one of my best friends into a 2 bedroom apartment within the same complex.</p>
<p>I&#8217;ve lived in Downtown Santa Ana for the past 3 years. When I look at this part of my life, I will always think of my time in DSA as one where I made the transition from my 20&#8242;s to my 30&#8242;s. I &#8220;grew up&#8221; from living in a frat house style arrangement to living on my own. I also grew up in the sense that I graduated from going out to clubs in Hollywood to the more laid back spots in LA and OC.</p>
<p>Now it&#8217;s on to the next phase of my life. At the beginning of March, I moved from Orange County, my home for the past 14 (!) years, to the Bay Area. I&#8217;m leaving the comfort of the familiar and living somewhere completely new to me. I&#8217;m moving in with my girlfriend which is also a first for me. I&#8217;ve transferred to my company&#8217;s Bay Area office so for the first time in a long time, I feel like I have some stability in my job. While I&#8217;m leaving Santa Ana with a bit of sadness, I&#8217;m more than excited to begin this next part of my life in the Bay Area.</p>
<p>&#8220;Every new beginning comes from some other beginning&#8217;s end.&#8221;</p>
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		<title>★ Year in Review: 2011</title>
		<link>http://www.absolutjay.com/2012/01/year-in-review-2011/</link>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 26 Jan 2012 06:34:59 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jay</dc:creator>
				<category><![CDATA[Life]]></category>
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		<description><![CDATA[Two thousand eleven was a very significant year. It was the anniversary for several big events. It was 10 years ago that I launched this site. It was 10 years ago that the iPod was launched. It was 10 years &#8230; <a href="http://www.absolutjay.com/2012/01/year-in-review-2011/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Two thousand eleven was a very significant year. It was the anniversary for several big events. It was 10 years ago that I <a href="http://www.absolutjay.com/2001/11/mia/">launched</a> this site. It was 10 years ago that the <a href="http://www.apple.com/pr/library/2001/10/23Apple-Presents-iPod.html">iPod was launched</a>. It was 10 years ago that our nation <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/September_11_attacks">changed forever</a>. And it was 10 years ago that one event put happenstance into perspective.</p>
<p>I worked at the UCI Bookstore during the last 3 years I was at UCI. It was probably the best job on campus job you could have. Your job was on campus so that made it super convenient. And they were understanding of your life as a college student so they would do anything to accommodate your schedule. While most of the times I had with my coworkers was fun and enjoyable, there was one shift I&#8217;ll never forget.</p>
<p>I was working a closing shift with one of my coworkers. It was pretty slow so we were just goofing around waiting for our shift to end. He goes into the back to grab his cellphone and is gone for a couple minutes. He comes back and he is visibly shaken. He tells me that someone close to him was suddenly taken away. His friend was in a motorcycle accident and he didn&#8217;t survive. I didn&#8217;t know what to say. I&#8217;d never been around anyone who has received news like that. After awhile, we started talking about his friend. I don&#8217;t remember much of the conversation but I do remember talking about the car club he was in. It turns out that I knew someone in that same car club but in San Diego. I talked about my high school friend and the car that he had. We talked about the picnics they would throw in the summer. We talked about how funny it was that we were able to make that connection. By the end of our shift, I felt that somehow I was able to make him feel a little bit better. I reflected on what happened that day and was moved enough to <a href="http://www.absolutjay.com/2001/12/road-trips/">write a post</a> on how people come into and out of your life.</p>
<p>Last March, I was out with my friends having dinner at the Gyu Kaku in Tustin. Towards the end of dinner, I check my phone and notice an old friend of mine checking in at a bar in my neighborhood. Surprised that she was in my neighborhood since she lived up north, I asked how long she would be there and she invited me to meet up. The rest, as they say, is history. Today, Mary is my girlfriend and I&#8217;ve never been happier than any other point in my life.</p>
<p>At the stage in our relationship where we went from flirty text messages and IM chats to late night phone conversations, we talked about that night in March. She was at The Copper Door to celebrate her younger sister&#8217;s birthday. She was also in town because it was her brother&#8217;s birthday as well. I knew that she had a brother and that he was no longer with us. We started talking about his passing and how it affected a lot of people. She started telling me about how one of our mutual friends even went to the viewing.</p>
<p>Light bulb.</p>
<p>My heart was beating out of its chest while I was trying to send her the link to a post I&#8217;d written ten years earlier. She read my post. We were both speechless. I&#8217;d written the post late at night, on December 18, 2001; the day after her brother had passed.</p>
<p>I&#8217;ve been meaning to write my annual year in review post for over a month now but didn&#8217;t know where to start. I decided to share these two stories to show that everything happens for a reason. Little insignificant decisions you make in your everyday life, may have an significant impact in your future, who knows how many years in advance. After our first date, I knew that Mary and I had something special. I connect with her on so many different levels; music, food, movies, sense of humor. I could go on. The one thing I couldn&#8217;t relate to with her was with her brother. I&#8217;d never met Clyde and I hope to never know what it&#8217;s like to lose a sibling so suddenly. When I wrote that post, I had no idea that this was the one way I would be able to connect to Clyde. I had no idea he had a younger sister that I would meet for the first time at a bar in Fullerton 5 years later. I had no idea that I would run into her again 5 years after that and fall head over heels for her.</p>
<p>It&#8217;s funny the way life works sometimes. Here&#8217;s to 2012.</p>
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		<title>★ A Tale of Two Jobs</title>
		<link>http://www.absolutjay.com/2011/11/a-tale-of-two-jobs/</link>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 30 Nov 2011 23:03:45 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jay</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[I&#8217;ve been wanting to write this post for awhile now but I didn&#8217;t want to jinx anything before it all became official. I&#8217;ve always been amazed how much can happen in a year and this year is no exception. At &#8230; <a href="http://www.absolutjay.com/2011/11/a-tale-of-two-jobs/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I&#8217;ve been wanting to write this post for awhile now but I didn&#8217;t want to jinx anything before it all became official. I&#8217;ve always been amazed how much can happen in a year and this year is no exception. At the beginning of the year, I was working from home for a small HVAC rep firm and worked on a food truck part time. Fast forward to the end of November and my how things have changed.</p>
<p>As of yesterday, I became an employee of DMG. DES, the company I&#8217;ve been working for since 2009, was bought and most of the employees joined DMG as part of the merger. My position has changed. I won&#8217;t be in outside sales and working from home anymore. In this role, I&#8217;ll be supporting two outside sales people and be commuting 5 days a week to the office. I&#8217;m not disappointed at all with the change. Working from home definitely has its pros but it also has its cons. The main disadvantage to working from home are the distractions. I&#8217;d often work from coffee shops just to get away from my apartment just to give me a sense of going somewhere to do something. I&#8217;m actually looking forward to working in an office with actual coworkers. At home, all I had was <a href="http://d.pr/mgPW">Dexter</a>. While I&#8217;ll miss being able to run errands during the day and working remotely (sometimes very remotely), I&#8217;m excited to start work.</p>
<p>I started working on the <a href="http://www.doschinos.com">Dos Chinos food truck</a> in September of 2010 and while I thought of it as something I would do for fun on the side for extra money, I almost turned it into my career. The truck turned from an unwrapped, roach coach to one of the <a href="http://blogs.ocweekly.com/stickaforkinit/2011/11/10_great_luxe_loncheras_in_orange_county.php?page=2">most popular food trucks in Orange County</a>. The truck was featured in the <a href="http://www.nytimes.com/2011/04/08/us/08california.html">New York Times</a>, Good Day LA and <a href="http://eatst.foodnetwork.ca/tvshow/episodes/17/">Eat Street</a> on The Cooking Channel. The truck was doing so well that in October, Dos Chinos opened the doors to its brick and mortar location. With rumors of DES being acquired and the success of the food truck, I seriously contemplated switching careers to manage the Downtown LA location. I told my managers at both DES and Dos Chinos where I was and that after a much needed vacation to Hawaii, that I would make my decision of where I wanted to work. Once I got back, I made my decision to work at Dos Chinos full time. I called Hop ready to work and got the cold shoulder. While we had verbally agreed on how much I would be paid, he back tracked and couldn&#8217;t afford to pay me. I had already told DES that I was working the restaurant full time but held off telling DMG. I thank the powers that be for everything working out the way it did.</p>
<p>While I&#8217;m sad the Dos Chinos thing didn&#8217;t work out the way I wanted, it led me to my current side gig. I met the guys from The Lime Truck back in September 2010. We all hung out at their house in Irvine after a long shift and had a <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=itW89uwtIVI">great time</a>. They eventually became one of, if not the most, <a href="http://blogs.ocweekly.com/stickaforkinit/2011/11/10_great_luxe_loncheras_in_orange_county.php?page=2">popular trucks in Orange County</a>. They recently <a href="http://blog.foodnetwork.com/fn-dish/2011/09/26/the-great-food-truck-race-winner/">won season 2 of The Great Food Truck race</a> and Chef Jason is using the money to open his own restaurant. A couple months back when Dos Chinos and The Lime Truck put together a <a href="http://blogs.ocweekly.com/stickaforkinit/2011/09/lime_truck_dos_chinos_pop_up_restaurant.php">pop up restaurant</a> event, I asked him about working at his new restaurant. I called him the closer the restaurant was to being done and while I was expecting to go through some interview process, he ended up bringing me along as part of his staff. My side gig is now a server and stage at <a href="http://www.playgrounddtsa.com">Playground</a> in Downtown Santa Ana.</p>
<p>In Steve Jobs&#8217; commencement speech to Stanford, he spoke about connecting the dots. </p>
<blockquote><p>You can&#8217;t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.</p></blockquote>
<p>I know that all the events of the past year have led me to where I am today. Without meeting Hop, I would&#8217;ve never met Jason and I wouldn&#8217;t have my awesome side gig I have today. If one of my old managers didn&#8217;t refer me to Joe, I would&#8217;ve never been hired by DES and then later acquired by DMG. I know that the dots I&#8217;ve connected this year are only a small part of a bigger picture. I won&#8217;t know how the picture will end up looking like, but I trust that it will all work out in the end.</p>
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		<title>★ RIP Steve Jobs</title>
		<link>http://www.absolutjay.com/2011/10/rip-steve-jobs/</link>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 06 Oct 2011 03:04:30 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jay</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[As I type this, I&#8217;m on a flight, appropriately enough, to the Bay Area. I learned of Steve Jobs&#8217; passing while checking Twitter one last time before the plane pushed off from its gate. I&#8217;ve never understood why some people &#8230; <a href="http://www.absolutjay.com/2011/10/rip-steve-jobs/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>As I type this, I&#8217;m on a flight, appropriately enough, to the Bay Area. I learned of Steve Jobs&#8217; passing while checking Twitter one last time before the plane pushed off from its gate. I&#8217;ve never understood why some people would react so emotionally to the passing of a public figure they are not closely related to. Until today.</p>
<p>I take pride in being able to say that I was once an Apple employee. I worked at a retail store in San Diego right out of college. I have only one Steve Jobs story that I can share. I was an Apple employee when he sent that first company wide email announcing that he had been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. He said that there were two kinds: the more common one which is, in over 90% of its cases, terminal and a rare form that is actually treatable. He had the latter type. He went on to say that patients with his type of cancer are able to live healthy lives for years. Steve also said that he would take a six month medical leave to deal with his cancer and that Tim Cook would be leading the company in the meantime. This was in 2004.</p>
<p>It&#8217;s amazing that he only stepped down as CEO six weeks ago. He truly lived and breathed Apple. Every time I use the Maps application to avoid traffic, every time I FaceTime with my girlfriend and every time I use my iPhone to casually pass the time, I&#8217;ll be thankful for the man and his company that made these things possible. </p>
<p>Thanks Steve. You&#8217;ll be missed.</p>
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		<title>★ A Long Overdue Update or Yes, I&#8217;m Still Alive</title>
		<link>http://www.absolutjay.com/2011/08/a-long-overdue-update-or-yes-im-still-alive/</link>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 19 Aug 2011 06:54:15 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jay</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[It&#8217;s been way too long since I&#8217;ve paid any attention to this site and I can only blame myself. I thought I&#8217;d take a moment and write down what&#8217;s been going on since the last time I posted. As of &#8230; <a href="http://www.absolutjay.com/2011/08/a-long-overdue-update-or-yes-im-still-alive/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>It&#8217;s been way too long since I&#8217;ve paid any attention to this site and I can only blame myself. I thought I&#8217;d take a moment and write down what&#8217;s been going on since the last time I posted.</p>
<p>As of June, I am now a technology writer for <a href="http://techzulu.com">TechZulu.com</a>. I&#8217;m always on the look out for something that I enjoy and I can make some extra money from. I know what I&#8217;m doing now is not what I&#8217;m going to do for the rest of my life so I&#8217;ve been a little more active in trying to find out what it is I ENJOY doing. I noticed that a local tech site that I follow was looking for a writer to post reviews, interviews and articles on local startups. I&#8217;ve been blogging for almost 10 years and have been posting tech related posts to my site for about 7 years so I figured, why not? I was a little surprised when the CEO responded to me via Twitter and wanted to contact me. After a phone interview and an in person meeting, I was welcomed aboard as the newest writer for TechZulu.  I&#8217;m about two months in and while I feel like I&#8217;m still getting a feel for actually writing for a site other than my own, I like the fact that my articles will be read by a wider audience than my own personal blog. You can read what I&#8217;ve written for TechZulu <a href="http://techzulu.com/author/jay/">here</a>.</p>
<p>I&#8217;m a little late to the iPad 2 bandwagon but last week I won one for a contest at work. I relented on buying an iPad 2 when they were released because I didn&#8217;t feel that there were enough features to get me to upgrade. Once this contest was announced at work, it was a no brainer. All I had to do was do what I normally get paid for, AND get an iPad 2? Sure, why not?! At first, the contest said we were going to be allotted a 32GB WiFi only model but for accounting reasons that I&#8217;m not complaining about, our manufacturer sent us enough money for a 64GB 3G+WiFi and a Smart Cover. I&#8217;ve had it for almost two weeks and while a full blown review would be a little outdated, I&#8217;ll write down some quick thoughts about it in a future post.</p>
<p>The previous side gig on the <a href="http://www.doschinos.com">Dos Chinos truck</a> has slowly grown into something that, if I really wanted to, could replace my main source of income. Since I last posted, our truck has been featured in a <a href="http://www.nytimes.com/2011/04/08/us/08california.html">New York Times article</a>, on KTLA and on The Cooking Channel&#8217;s Eat St. And now, the owners are close to opening up a brick and mortar location in Downtown Los Angeles. Hop, one of the co-owners of the truck, has been really pushing me to jump on with him full time and help him launch the restaurant. It&#8217;s a bit humbling that he&#8217;s tapped me as one of the chosen to help launch the restaurant, but it could also open doors to something that I&#8217;ve always wanted to do on my own.</p>
<p>And on a final note, while I don&#8217;t like to get too personal, too often on this site, I&#8217;ve found myself in probably the last relationship I&#8217;ll ever get into. She&#8217;s turned me from cynical and jaded to hopeful and extremely happy. I&#8217;m thankful everyday that our paths crossed again and she&#8217;s back in my life.</p>
<p>If people still follow posts on this site, please know that I&#8217;m more interesting, and post a lot more on <a href="http://www.twitter.com/jaytorres">Twitter</a>.</p>
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		<title>★ Panic Switch</title>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 11 May 2011 17:01:02 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jay</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Over the weekend, I had one of the most frightening experiences anyone can have. On my way back from Las Vegas for my birthday weekend, I had a panic attack. I was in the back seat of my roommates car. &#8230; <a href="http://www.absolutjay.com/2011/05/panic-switch/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Over the weekend, I had one of the most frightening experiences anyone can have. On my way back from Las Vegas for my birthday weekend, I had a panic attack. I was in the back seat of my roommates car. We were about 30 minutes from our apartment when I started feeling a tightness in my chest. I couldn&#8217;t tell if it was my lungs or my heart but it was a slight tingling/tightness. I thought it was weird when it wouldn&#8217;t go away no matter how much I fidgeted. It then started spreading through my upper body and into my arms. At this point, I started to get really scared. I told my roommate and his girlfriend who was sitting in the front passenger side that I didn&#8217;t feel good. After the weekend I had in Vegas, they thought I had to vomit but I promptly said it wasn&#8217;t that. From that point, everything was a blur. I had tunnel vision and my point of view felt like someone was running around wildly with a handheld camcorder. Luckily, my roommate has had experience with people having panic attacks and knew exactly what to do. As soon as he started to telling me to breathe deeply and that everything was going to be ok, I started to remember everything that was going on. I remember feeling extremely tense. I couldn&#8217;t feel my fingers and they were locked into position. My entire upper body was tense. I honestly thought I was having a heart attack. Once we got home, I was starting to feel a little bit better. The next day, I could feel the effects coming back so I took the day off work. Even yesterday, I could still feel the after effects of my panic attack. Not in the same way as the previous days, but as waves of emotion coming over me suddenly and unexpectedly.</p>
<p>What&#8217;s even scarier than the actual panic attack is that I don&#8217;t know what caused it. I&#8217;ve gone through bad breakups, grandparents passing away and being laid off and none of those have triggered anything close to a panic attack. Even as I look at my life now, there&#8217;s nothing that I can complain about. I have a decent paying job that lets me work from home, a side job with awesome perks, a great circle of close friends and I recently found someone that I really care about, that I can&#8217;t stop thinking about and makes me happy. Regardless, I&#8217;m going to get a professional opinion to find out where is all stemming from. Until then&#8230;</p>
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		<title>★ Quotes from the Weekend</title>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 28 Mar 2011 19:14:10 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[Some lines from over the weekend. &#8220;We&#8217;re so old we&#8217;re talking about the 90&#8242;s like it&#8217;s the 80&#8242;s.&#8221; &#8220;I love Joe Hill&#8217;s birthday. I look forward to it every year.&#8221; &#8220;The last time I saw Joe like that was on &#8230; <a href="http://www.absolutjay.com/2011/03/quotes-from-the-weekend/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Some lines from over the weekend.</p>
<p>&#8220;We&#8217;re so old we&#8217;re talking about the 90&#8242;s like it&#8217;s the 80&#8242;s.&#8221;</p>
<p>&#8220;I love Joe Hill&#8217;s birthday. I look forward to it every year.&#8221;</p>
<p>&#8220;The last time I saw Joe like that was on his wedding day.&#8221;</p>
<p>&#8220;Bros before hoes except if you&#8217;re getting ass.&#8221;</p>
<p>&#8220;The name of my car is Truck Norris.&#8221;</p>
<p>&#8220;Cool story bro.&#8221;</p>
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		<title>★ Warmfuzzy</title>
		<link>http://www.absolutjay.com/2011/02/warmfuzzy/</link>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 14 Feb 2011 23:26:19 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jay</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Over the weekend, DJ Neil Armstrong performed at U-31 in San Diego. I&#8217;d seen him perform last year at Grand Star in LA&#8217;s Chinatown. If there&#8217;s any chance for me to see a performance, I&#8217;ll make the effort to see &#8230; <a href="http://www.absolutjay.com/2011/02/warmfuzzy/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a>]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Over the weekend, DJ Neil Armstrong performed at U-31 in San Diego. I&#8217;d seen him perform <a href="http://www.social-clothing.com/blog/2010/04/dj-neil-armstrong-at-soul-sessions/">last year</a> at Grand Star in LA&#8217;s Chinatown. If there&#8217;s any chance for me to see a performance, I&#8217;ll make the effort to see him. When he announced that he was going to spin in my hometown, I had to go and of course, he didn&#8217;t disappoint. When I saw him in LA last year, he just released The DNA of the Blueprint so his set was very Jay-Z centric. This set wasn&#8217;t concentrated on any one artist but about halfway through he played the intro to Dark Fantasy and the whole place just went nuts. He finished up the set with another Kanye song, &#8220;Runaway&#8221;. Perfect song to end an awesome set.</p>
<p><iframe style="display:block; margin-left:auto; margin-right:auto;" src="http://player.vimeo.com/video/19995596" width="500" height="375" frameborder="0"></iframe></p>
<p>This morning, Neil <a href="https://twitter.com/djneilarmstrong/status/37259825255677952">tweeted</a> out a link to Warmfuzzy. This was the first of his mixtapes I was introduced to and he appropriately tweeted out a link to it since today is Valentine&#8217;s Day. It&#8217;s billed as the perfect mix to give to someone you&#8217;re with or currently into. It was released in 2005 which was an ETERNITY ago if you think about it. This was before Twitter, MySpace was still relevant, Facebook was barely a year old and before Neil became a relative household name as Jay-Z&#8217;s tour DJ. As a courtesy, he has reposted <a href="http://www.neilarmstrongpodcast.com/send/aebcme">the link</a> to all the late comers who may have missed it back in 2005. It&#8217;s kind of amazing that something almost 6 years old is just as listenable now as it was back then.</p>
<p><img style="display:block; margin-left:auto; margin-right:auto;" src="http://www.absolutjay.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/02/neilarmstrongu311.jpg" alt="Neil Armstrong at U-31" border="0" width="500" height="374" /></p>
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		<title>★ 2010: Year in Review</title>
		<link>http://www.absolutjay.com/2011/01/2010-year-in-review/</link>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 06 Jan 2011 19:49:04 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jay</dc:creator>
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			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><a href="http://www.absolutjay.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/coco.jpg" title="In January, I was lucky enough to get tickets to Conan's last week on The Tonight Show."><img src="http://www.absolutjay.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/coco-150x150.jpg" width="150" height="150"></a><a href="http://www.absolutjay.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/tnt.jpg" title="I not only decided to run the San Diego Rock N Roll Marathon, but I also chose to raise funds for LLS with Team in Training" ><img src="http://www.absolutjay.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/tnt-150x150.jpg" width="150" /></a><a href="http://www.absolutjay.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/iPad.jpg" title="I don't wait in line for a lot of products, but the iPad is one of the few things I waited in line for the day it was released."><img src="http://www.absolutjay.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/iPad-150x150.jpg" width="150" height="150" alt="Box" /></a><a href="http://www.absolutjay.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/eunice.jpg" title="First wedding I attended in 2010; my bff Eunice got married."><img src="http://www.absolutjay.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/eunice-150x150.jpg" width="150" height="150" /><a href="http://www.absolutjay.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/drinks.jpg" title="This year seemed to be the year of drinking. Not that it's different from any year, but I learned to enjoy what I drank. Not just to get drunk."><img src="http://www.absolutjay.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/drinks-150x150.jpg" width="150" height="150" /></a><a href="http://www.absolutjay.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/apartment.jpg" title="I celebrated my 30th birthday. I love this picture because it tries to show how packed my apartment was and its slightly out of focus. Just like that night."><img src="http://www.absolutjay.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/apartment-150x150.jpg" width="150" height="150" /></a><a href="http://www.absolutjay.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/threeam.jpg" title="Nolan and I at 3am to run my first marathon. Probably the most difficult thing I've ever accomplished. Running the marathon, not waking up at 3am."><img src="http://www.absolutjay.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/threeam-150x150.jpg" width="150" height="150" /></a><a href="http://www.absolutjay.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/karen.jpg" title="Second wedding of the year, my other bff gets married."><img src="http://www.absolutjay.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/karen-150x150.jpg" width="150" height="150" /></a><a href="http://www.absolutjay.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/fhf.jpg" title="Frosty, Heidi and Frank take their final bow as a group. I love this photo as it shows everyone either holding up a drink or a camera."><img src="http://www.absolutjay.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/FHF-150x150.jpg" width="150" height="150" /></a><a href="http://www.absolutjay.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/larnr.jpg" title="My second event of the year, I ran the inaugural LA Rock N Roll marathon."><img src="http://www.absolutjay.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/larnr-150x150.jpg"  width="150" height="150" /></a><a href="http://www.absolutjay.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/lvrnr.jpg" title="My third event of 2010 was the Las Vegas Rock N Roll Marathon. I intended to run the full but quit and only did the half."><img src="http://www.absolutjay.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/lvrnr-150x150.jpg" width="150" height="150" /></a><a href="http://www.absolutjay.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/elevator.jpg" title="I decided to throw a New Year's Eve party. This is on our way to The Crosby."><img src="http://www.absolutjay.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/elevator-150x150.jpg" width="150"height="150" /></a></p>
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